I Got My EyeS on U...!!!!: 2016

Hello all.. not sure there is anybody whose still following this blog. Dun think anybody still reading as i have stopped writing for quite sumtime.. well thank you for always being by my side :)

Since the case of Dr. Nor wanna be... i am so lucky to be called back to the previous company.. and be back to my old place.. old position.. so happy and thrilled to be back here.. with the gorgeous cute tough strong boss, this lady boss really changed my life.. despite the hard life i have been thru, she really made my life better..

After 1 year and few months served her and the department, all went well until the time she had to leave us.. for sure its not wat she wanted to but she had to.. i luv u boss.. lost another great boss... we'll definitely missed you so much..

Being hanging again as what happen before, i was approached by Head of HR and Employee Development boss, i agreed to move forward. With the new perspective and new portfolio, and new scopes i m up for changes. may b this is my new challenges and the new milestone for me.

Now, 2 months i am here.. I am still struggling to adopt to the new environment. This is definitely not me. I never had issued in adopting to the new environment. Definitely not me... but why?

For the first month, i am doing my best but may b i used to be in a culture where give and take is applies, this really a challenge for me. Hmmmm... to cut this short, a small tiny little situation happen whereby i parked at my boss spot. And i did not know the rules which no one bothers to tell. When i asked, yes i am willing to move the car, it occurs that yes, "I need to move the car" from the person who has the authority to park if my boss not in office. As simple as common sense, can that person just let me park for today coz i have parked there and i will not park nemore ever after this coz i already knew the rules, logic applies. But, this common sense of that person, just not there. May for some, this only a small matter. But for me, this represent who you are.

Another lil thing happen, when my car punctured sumwhere in our office's premises and i am in a hurry to go back to office for meeting, i sent the Whatsapp image to the group, but NONE replied. Do they really care? not even asking how am i doing. But this is the difference. A team with love and without. The other team which i have left, still concerned bout me. Hmmmmmmm.. small thingy aite...so..... again, may b its nothing for you but a huge thing to me.

Last but not least, i felt that i am no special here. Nothing. In prev dept, i am such a sweetheart. Haha, well never asked for that but they made u felt special. But here, i dont really know. Seriously, i dont know. You dun really feel the luv. I can feel the team spirit but just the spirit without luv. Did not know how to describe it, but yes i do honestly felt that i have no luv here.

Truth is, i don't really want to compare but, whatever happen, i felt like a huge disappointment of leaving them. but, i also do know, if i am still there, i don't really know where i ll be with no boss and no werk and may be this is the right path for me. MAY BE. I have ti hardly adopt myself here..

My apology should there is anybody "terasa hati" or felt awkward, but thats the true feeling. May be its me... hmmmmm..... ntah lah...

Just my 2 cents. If you wanna enjoy your werk, chose the job that you are in luv with, not the job that you are struggling to luv.

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