Those Days..!!!

HHmmmm...Non-Stop Diarrhea... last 5 days Harris got Non-Stop Diarrhea....i am so werried since i am alone here..but luckily got my sis to accompany me to the clinics...TQ sis....really appreaciate it....luv ya..muahsss....

From Day 1 (20/01/2010) till Day 5 (24/01/2010) were a very tiring and chalengging days for me...being alone to handle Harris, manage myself and to fight with my innerself feeling ..this was so terribly hard...truthly, i really need my hubby..but i understood that he has his responsibility there and its for US..our family...so, i know i am a very strong n independent garl..not to say...'Masuk bakul angkat sendiri'..but YES..thats me...so Harris got diarrhea each hour and follow-up with 'muntah2'..the 2nd n 3rd day was the worst...he dun want to eat, drink or anything...he juz felt dizzy and sleeep but not tite.... i missed his so called 'wild scream' and his smile that i eager to see every moring...but luckily he still can smile though he's in pain....his weight before was 7.23kgs but now 6.7kgs...wat a drastic change..the 4th day....he start to drink the 'milky creamy yummy milk'......n the 5th day he start to eat a little...play,bubble'ing' and scream not to loud....but merengek a lot...but still he' s getting better...so juz wish he'll get better soon...i missed his everything.....thank you to my sis, my mom,my friends who support me n especially my hubby who gave me n lend me his strength to get thru this...luv ya all....muahsss...

First Day-Back from BBsitter's

2nd Day

Sis-shy-shy Cat

3rd Day -with AYAH's shirt

4th Day- A little bit SHINE...

5th Day- Wild Scream & Cute Face i adore

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Non-Stop Diarrhea...!!

Poor Harris...got non.stop diarrhea since yesterday...but start from 8pm last nite , its wont stop...i didnt know how to stop it....harris was like merengek..may b his tummy's hurt...with the fever n the cough n the diarrhea...i can feel how painfull he is now...Dear God, please give him a good health so he will not suffer this anymore..i cant stand to see his cute face with his unexplainable pain....i cant bare to see him suffer alone without knowing to tell how it feel..only by his tears....hmmmm......i m speechless...dun know wat to say more....but now am happy he's sleeping with a sweet dream i wish....i luv u my harris......mummy n ayah will always b with u.....

Harris so tired and fall asleep

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Frustration..Am I...?????

Frustration a common emotional response to opposition. Related to anger and disappointment, it arises from the perceived resistance to the fulfillment of individual will. The greater the obstruction, and the greater the will, the more the frustration is likely to be. Causes of frustration may be internal or external. In people, internal frustration may arise from challenges in fulfilling personal goals and desires, instinctual drives and needs, or dealing with perceived deficiencies, such as a lack of confidence or fear of social situations. Conflict can also be an internal source of frustration; when one has competing goals that interfere with one another, it can create cognitive dissonance. External causes of frustration involve conditions outside an individual, such as a blocked road or a difficult task. While coping with frustration, some individuals may engage in passive-aggressive behavior, making it difficult to identify the original cause(s) of their frustration, as the responses are indirect. A more direct, and common response, is a propensity towards aggression..


I have that symptom but never showed..so hard to express how u feel since this BLOG in published to public...so ave to 'jaga hati' certain people also...but recently thats wat i felt and dun know who to let it go...if the one who read this closer n know me better, they would know wats the problem i guess....arghhhhh....i wish my hubby's here..


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Bubble'ing' Harris

Snap this on Saturday Morning...after bfast..huhuhuhu..He's learning bubbling form his ayah...uhuhu and continue learning himself..but he's a great student...he'll bubbling on anything...susu, nestum, ubat, and when his tummy's full.....and bla bla bla.....




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Especially To Ayah...!!!!

I know u missed ur baby's smile........Here's one specially for you..!!!

A week of Luv and kisses...!! Forever Luv......

Hmm...today is weekend..biasanya hari minggu ni pg2 hubby akan kejut n pergi bfast...biasanya kat Ali Maju kat bawah ni ja...but today...hmmm..me n harris woke up around 8 am...bgn2 harris smell so...wallah...can imagine the smell..huhuhu pg2 da membuang..sihat anakku ini...and...we had bath together..hmm..malas hari ni nak mandikan harris dalam tub dia so mandi guna shower lak arini..suka dia leh main air....then we had bfast together..he had nestum n me had milo n bread with peanut butter....n harris went to sleep...so..thats the routine actually every week cum akali lni hubby x der...

So...for the past few days..mmg menyiksakan...penuh dengan linangan air mata....and missed and kisses..but as we agreed REDHA dengan dugaan ini.....but ABG......we realy missed u a lot...hopw u r doing well there....

And today....got a letter from hubby..hide it on top of the monitor...i was like waiting for the letter but i didnt know where to find it....its like PS I LUV YOU..huhuhu..the letter was so touch...read it loud so harris could hear it wpun dia x paham kan...tp biar la...asalkan bb da wat amanah hubby....read the letter to him...there're a checklist in the letter...all the things i ve to prepare n do wvery morning...so so so touch coz all the times.. i almost forgot and he kept remind me rite to my face..but this time NO...in the letter and i cut in and stick in on the side wall of the door...as he want me to do.....so.....its a lovely letter...cant wait if there's more....So, honey...u take care there..we will always miss u..and our luv will goes much stronger than before..

P.S. I LUV YOU...

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P.S I LOVE YOU

 

Actually da tgk cita ni rasanya 20 kali kot..cerita lama tahun 2007 rasanya...tp x pernah boring...so romantic and dramatic....cerita dia pasal couple ni da berkahwin tp selalu berkelahi....boleh kata tiap2 hari berkelahi..until one day the hubby died of brain tumor..so...the wife berkurung dalam rumah sampai la birthday dia ke 30. Tiba2 ada kek sampai and wife ni (Holly)  so surprised ingatkan ada adik beradik dia nak main2 kan...and a letter attaached on the bottom of the cake's cover... tp...bukan satu surat malah beberapa surat..semua surat akan berakhir dengan 

P.S. I LOVE YOU.... dan semua surat tuh adalah surat pemberi semangat pada Holy....hmmm....tgkkan cerita ni..will it be in real world...ada ka?????

You should watch this...really a great LOVE story...a true love of a wife n husband....

I miss my hubby a lot.....huaaaaaaaaaa...!!!!!!! 

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Tiada Tahun Baru Cuma Lembaran Baru

Bb x berkesempatan nak update blog ni semperna tahun baru 2010...hmmm..rasa macam x wujud tahun 2010..memandangkan terlalu banyak perkara lain yang bermain dalam kotak minda ini....

29/12/2009 - Hasil kekejaman Manusia....Perginya seorang insan iaitu bapa mertuaku. Beliau telah meninggalkan seorang balu dan 5 orang anak lelaki. Salah seorangnya adalah hubby Bb..merupakan anak yang sulong yang kini memikul tanggungjawab selaku ketua keluarga...hmmm...meninggal di Hospital Seremban pada jam 3.30 pagi mengejutkan semua ahli keluarga...termasuklah hubby yang baru sahaja smpi ke Langkawi untuk memulakan tugasnya..pagi 29/12 Bb masih berada di office kerana menunggu hubby untuk sampai ke KL Sentral dari Langkawi. Pukul 1 ptg kami bertolak balik ke Kampar.. lebih kurang pukul 4 ptg baru sampai memandangkan terpaksa berhenti2 kerana membawa anak kecilku ini..Sian Harris...Sesampai di rumah kampar...sempat jugak hubby n amad melihat jenazah arwah dan kemudian terus di bawa untuk disembahyangkan dan dikebumikan...Alhamdulillah segalanya selesai...Bb kesian tgk mak yang sentiasa merenung jauh mengenang abah..mana taknya...dah hampir 30 tahun hidup bersama..tidak pernah berpisah...setiap kali melihat kerusi malas di depan pintu, tempat abah duduk sewaktu sakit menitis air mata mak..setiap kali hendak makan....bergenang air mata...setiap kali melihat dan tercium baju abah....sayu hatinya...dan setiap apa pun yang mak buat....terharu kami melihatnya..tp apakan daya...dan Bb ingat lg ,  seminggu sebelum pemergiannya...arwah menyatakan dia teringin sangat melihat cucu, menantu dan anaknya..takut2 nanti x sempat..bila diingatkan semula...alhamdulillah hajatnya tercapai kerana kami sekeluarga pulang secara mengejut..saja nak surprise kan abah..dan Bb ingat lagik masa tuh kami ramai2 makan ais krim jagung..abah tambah 3/4 kali...hmmm..namum begitu...kami sekeluarga meredhai pemergian abah...sesungguhnya Tuhan lebih menyayanginya....Hmm sama2 la kita sedekahkan Al fatihah buat arwah agar rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yang beriman. Amin

5/1/2010 - Hari ni, Hubby bertolak ke Langkawi..Bb hantar hubby kat KL Sentral sbb nnt takut lambat ambik Harris kalau hantar ke LCCT...terasa syahdu bila mengenangkan Bb juga x pernah jauh dari hubby..tambah pulak denga kehadiran Harris..menambah kesayuan di hati kami..namum...kami redha..jika ini rezeki kami...kami terima dengan hati terbuka...demi masa depan kami sekeluarga..terutamanya harris..kami berkorban...buat suamiku..tabahkan hatimu mengahadapi dugaan ini..walaupun pemergian abah masih dirasai, namum hidup kita harus diteruskan..tanggungjawab kita harus dilaksanakan..semoga, ini adalah Lembaran Baru buat kita dlam mencorak hidup kita di tahun 2010 dan akan datang..Bb doakan abg berjaya. Bb dan  Harrris sentiasa bersama abg....miss u  a lot...muahssss.

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