Suatu Hari Nanti

Suatu hari nanti

Titik permulaan hidup yg pasti

Tatkala aku mengikat janji

 Berikrar akan sentiasa di sisi

Di sini bersama yang aku sayangi

Di hati insan yang aku cintai

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Suatu hari nanti

Pasti aku ingin di belai

Menongkah kasih mencipta sakti

Yang pasti lagi

Aku akan memiliki

Hak yang hakiki

Selaku pemuja pemuji cinta yang abadi

Buat si dia yg sudah lama di nanti

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Suatu hari nanti

Ingin ku dipeluk dan memeluk

Susuk tubuh seorang lelaki bergelar yang sejati

Hingga hujung dunia pasti kuikuti

Kerna ku tahu dan yakin dia adalah yang aku nanti

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Suatu hari nanti

Kau akan kugilai hingga kau sendiri meragui

Cinta ku padamu dtg dari hati

Atau dari obsesi lenganmu yg kuimpi

Kau pasti lagi meragui

Tatkala aku menggilaimu serta lenganmu sekali

Namun

Aku ingin kau ketahui

Setiap darah yang mengalir melalui setiap pelusuk badanmu

Dipenuhi cintaku yang tiada tandingi

Tiada makhluk yang mampu dibandingi

Oleh itu, percayalah dengan pasti

Cinta itu dari aku, hati dan jiwa raga ini

Buat kau yang bakal menemani 

Siang dan malam tanpa henti mencintai....

Untuk kamu..... suatu hari nanti...... 

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Fake happiness

I wonder sometime am i really happy in my everyday life or its just a fake smile of happiness which i myself didnot realize. 

Sumhow,  i cant really justify whether the feeling i have now is the real one...  I kinda forgot how happy feels like.  What i felt everyday was a conflict of mind of to be happy or need to be happy or just b happy eventho that feeling was unjustified.

Truth is,  apart from not be able to remember,  i lost thay kinda feeling.  Happy,  sad,  mad,  confuse,  and everything that related to it.  I assumed that all the feeling was real from the bottom of my heart.  But i still have doubt especially on the happiness  part.  How sure i am that the happy feeling is real.  How?  I guess may be to those who sees me would know if its the real happiness or its just a feeling with nothing. Some people said,  u can see that in the person's eyes.  So i didnot know except if there is someone who would tell me. It just soooo confusing.

But, I just realize recently,  when i felt that happy feeling  I burst to tears.  It felt soooooo lively and things i see was so shining bright and wonderful.. I guess in my perception,  this is my real happy feeling. The person whos next to me can see it.  How happy i am.  Staring at the clouds and smile. Crazy huh.  Hahhahaha..  Thats the feeling i guess. 

Hmmm,  to those who really have made me the happiest,  u know who u r.  Thank you so much.  U knew me better than myself.  I wonder will that lass forever.  I wonder will that person will always be by my side and show me that happiness more that what i felt now.  And put aside the pain which wat i am going thru every secobd. I wish it will be forever. 

Thank you from the bottom of my ♥  heart.

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