I am an independent woman who started to do things on her own since she was 18 yrs old... Before that, i am anak bapak.. Never know how to cook or do house chores.. Never even ironing my baju sekolah or even do my bfast.. Never ever tolong mak kat dapuq or even potong2 sayuq... She is the one lucky girl who only wakes up in the morning, eat nasi lemak.. Go to tuisyen bapak hantaq and amik.. And all i did just study... Tp x la jd best student pun.. But my point is... I am not as who i am now ....
The first time keluar dari rumah when i was 17 yrs old.. Going to college right after SPM.. Dont even have time to lompat2 have fun jlan2 or keja kilang hahahaha... What my parent thought was just sudying... Bapak suh amik course IT & accounting masa tu.. College masa tu EDI dekat Taman Melawati.. From that moment, kena belajaq basuh bj lipat sendiri... Beli makan and everything sendiri... 6 months there... Honestly, i still not managing myself well... But ada progress la...
On July 1997, i flew to UK, studying at Univ Of Wales College Newport Majoring in IT Technology Engineering... There i learnt to cook.. To survive.. I became a very good cook till now. I got married at young age, 19 yrs old to be exact and yes... I managed to be the most independent girl...
Point is... Being in a state of surviving thru anything sumtime made me ignore other peoples help... Its not to say ignoring but i strongly refused... Try not to coz I will feel like i am the burden to those who offer to help.. Especially those who is so dear to me.. But up to some point, i really really desperate for their help.. And i am very gratefull for the help and support and care and thank you for honestly ikhlas doing this for me without asking for anything in return.. Except for my well being and happiness... I am truly from bottom of my heart feeling soooooo gratefull and blessed....thank you again...
I forgot the maon reason why i wrote this.. Hahahahah
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Oh yaaaa.. As people all know, i am a person who has a lot of sickness... Throught my years, i have been sick most of the time.. Even when i was little... I did everything myself.. Go to see doctors.. Do the check up.. Do the test and all... Yes i know i ma a very strong woman.. Hehe
But, at some point, when the fear haunted me.. I kept thinking.. What if somebody i waiting for me until my test done.. Would that be a relieve... But on the second thought... Why would u wasted few hours waiting for me to do the test or watever procedures.. There is so many other things u can do.. Thats my point of view of why i do not let anyone come with me during my check up and all.. Even warded sekalipun... But, tipu la if i said i am not happy or bless if someone so dear to me would wait for me patiently.... Hehe.. But again, yes... I am ok to do it alone...
So, thank you to those who have been with me thru my happy and sad time.. My ups and downs... My healthy and sickness time... Thank you so much.... Only Allah swt could grant u the pahala dan ganjaran nya... Thank you again...
Ok... Tak sampai sebenarnya apa yg nak di sampaikan... But all i wanna is i could do it myself... Dont worry, i ll survive... But if u r with me.. By my side..... Thank you sooooo much... I really appreciate it....
Xoxo
Muahssssss
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