Perasaan

Pernah tak bila orang tny soalan kita terkedu tak dapat nak jawab?

Ok kita tukar soalan tu sikit..

Pernah tak bila org tny soalan kita terkedu tak dapat jawab sebab kita tak ingat?

Or

Pernah tak bila org tny soalan kita terkedu tak dapat jawab sebab kita tak ingat mcmana perasaan or keadaan kita masa tu?

Or

Pernah tak bila org tny soalan kita terkedu tak dapat jawab sebab kita tak ingat dan org kata kita tipu?

Or

Pernah tak bila org tny soalan kita terkedu tak dapat jawab sebab kita tak ingat dan org kata kita tipu pasai apa yang jadi or apa yang kita rasa masa tu?

I get these questions and any related questions a lot. From friends, relative, familu even from my love one...

Truth is, i cant really answer all those with confident.

Why???

Coz i hardly remember or recall how it felt those days. Coz i really dont know the answer and its break my heart whenever i cant answer, that person sort off teasing me and macam tak percaya ja... And even shredded my heart in pieces, when they are the person who knew how i am and how is my condition...

And....

Yes, tho people say they understand, but when it comes to those questions or even when they have doubt,  they totally forgot that you had that "penyakit" ....

So, live with it... Thats the challenges i have to overcome..... Its hard to find someone who really really understand and always alert their mind that i have that mental illness...

Ok...

Dobi nak habis dah... Bb da lama nak tulia but dont know where to start.. Macam biasa i have a lot in mind... But it just burried there.......

Have a good weekend peeps..

Xoxo